It doesn’t matter who you are or where you’re from,
Most of us have an insecurity that makes us come undone.
They could be constant or few and far between,
They could be something physical or something unseen.

For some of us it’s our weight or in general our looks,
It could be about your personality or the size of your pocketbook.
They could be caused by years of emotional abuse,
Or just brought on by our own thoughts no matter how obtuse.

They cause us to seek validation for little things we do,
A compliment or a kind word it doesn’t mater from who.
Sometimes you can wait for that reassurance to appear,
Oft times the longer it takes, you’ll never get it becomes your fear.

It evolves through the years by leaps and bounds,
The easiest piece of it spins round and round.
You always hear things are the best since sliced bread,
But so much of how it works flies over our heads.

It used to be easy to secure it no doubt,
Now threats come from within and without.
Technology makes our lives easier, it keeps us in touch,
Go for a week without any of it and you’ll miss so much.

Computers are something that I dearly love,
My brain takes to them like a hand to a glove.
I’ve made so many friends online through the years,
Never using technology again, is one of my fears.

There are those that say time is so things don’t happen all at once,
But for everyone sometimes the weeks just turn to months.
The days can be short an they can be long,
Years on the other hand are too quickly gone.

This is the year that I turn thirty-eight,
Each year that passes I ponder my fate.
Will I end up with someone or end up alone,
The answer to which is currently unknown.

Stress over time can be trouble they say,
Working in IT you find that it’s just the way.
But time heals all or so I’ve been told,
So I’m taking time to myself to get my thoughts all controlled.

Pain is something that we’ve all felt,
There are varying degrees to which it’s dealt.
Some of it is physical you can see where you’re hurt
Emotional pain is just as real but nowhere near as overt.

Most physical pain will heal given time,
Not always alone you need a doctor sometimes.
Emotional pain can take a lot longer to heal,
Getting help to get past it is a larger odeal.

Seeking professional help can still come with a stigma,
Though now a days why that is, can be an enigma.
I should find myself a therapist I’m pretty certain,
However I’m too stubborn to deal with this burden.

A lot of people are confused by how the economy works,
Some people play the market and their luck couldn’t be worse.
It’s something we all need if we want to survive,
Most of us have just enough money to get by.

Hobbies are fun but most have their price,
Though they keep you entertained which always feel nice.
There are lots of things in the world you can get for free,
But there’s also a lot that you’ll need money to see.

What you spend your money on can say a lot,
As long as you can afford it although sometimes you cannot.
Where you work and where you live affect what you make,
Just remember when it’s all over there’s nothing you’ll take.

There’s family you’re born with and family you choose,
The best of friends are people you’ll not want to lose.
Your friends provide support through thick and thin,
They commiserate your loses and celebrate your wins.

Your friends are where you turn when you are down,
Some can be overly serious and others are clowns.
You meet them for dinner, you hang with them for drinks,
When you start dating someone you ask what they think.

Sometimes a friend becomes more than a friend,
There’s a chance that change can cause it all to end.
When you’re in love and it all works out,
Then you’ve found a friend for life no doubt.

It doesn’t matter if you call them husband or wife,
Your spouse should be your best friend for life.
This doesn’t mean that you’ll never have fights,
Just remember to make up before you turn out the lights.

Which one are we hearing a truth or a lie,
Sometimes as you hear them it’s hard to decide.
The truth’s what you tell whenever you want,
The lie is used to hide but often they haunt.

It’s said that the truth can set you free,
But no matter whiche I tell it becomes part of me.
I’ve tried to keep the lies I’ve told minor,
But time to time they’re the size of an airliner.

Most of the time I try to stick to the truth,
But sometimes I lie by the skin of my tooth.
With my friends I’m mostly honest,
But sometimes I dodge events that I’ve promised.

I hope my friends know if they catch me in a lie,
It’s never to harm and just to get by.
When I make plans I do want to go,
But sometimes my darkness just won’t let it be so.

I sit in my home drinking alone,
Contemplating the darkness inside me I’ve known.
I spend money on things that I certainly don’t need,
The one thing I’m sure of is that it’s not just greed.

This hole that I’ve found deep inside,
Swallows me up when I’m stuck in my mind.
Where it comes from I can’t be sure,
It swallows all light no matter how pure.

It comes and it goes, waxing and waning,
Where it comes from there is no explaining.
I try to make it disappear when I can,
However, lately my brain won’t follow my plan.

The darkness is something that I never let show,
No matter into which community I choose to go.
I don’t want these people I’ve met through the net,
To think of me as my darkness deep inset.